Food Journal 6/30/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- smoked oysters and crackers

Dinner- vegetable quesadillas

Snack- string cheese, blackberries

Food Journal 6/29/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- leftover spaghetti with vegetables

Dinner- orange chicken

Food Journal 6/28/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- leftover honey chicken

Dinner- tacos

Snack- string cheese

Food Journal 6/25/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- peanut butter and jelly

Dinner- honey chicken with broccoli

Menu Monday 6/24/2013

Dinner ideas for this week-

stuffed shells
salsa chicken
orange chicken
coconut chicken
kielbasa and sauerkraut
baked ziti
tacos
fajitas
sweet and sour pork
jambalaya
Mongolian beef
salsa verde

Food Journal 6/24/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- mac n cheese (the boxed kind-bad)

Dinner- pineapple curry pork chops

One Step Forward, Twenty Steps Back

Just when things seem to be getting better they get worse.

My mom is on so many pills they make her sick. She went to the doctor and they gave her more pills.  All they seem to do is throw pills at her. She says she doesn't know what's worse - her medical condition or the side effects from the pills. It's pretty bad when the pills that are suppose to help you make you even sicker. I feel so bad for her. She so sick she can't eat or barely leave the house. How is she suppose to eat right and exercise if the pills make her sick? This makes me even more determined to take care of myself and eat right. Also, this week I'm going to look into finding them a place to live by me. Maybe if I can get them up here, I can help them out.

Well, the five minute talks my husband and I have been having are really helping out but now we've run into another problem. This is a much more personal problem that I'm hesitant to share but now we have a bedroom problem. How do you have sex with a baby in the house and all you want to do is sleep? I don't know if it's hormones or I'm just plain tired but sex is at the bottom of my priority list. I think the baby takes it all out of me. Also, we can't be spontaneous anymore. It's hard to get in the mood when you only have five minutes. We've traded one problem for another.

Food Journal 6/23/2013

Breakfast- toast and banana

Lunch- Greek yogurt with honey and berries

Dinner- chili

Food Journal 6/22/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- leftover ham and stuffing

Dinner- chicken with olives and peppers

Snack- blueberries and blackberries from my garden

Food Journal 6/21/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- leftover meatloaf and mashed potatoes

Dinner- fish tacos

Food Journal 6/20/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- hot pockets (bad)

Dinner- ham and stuffing (ham was free)

Food Journal 6/18/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- smoked oysters and crackers

Dinner- sloppy joes

Menu Monday 6/17/2013

Dinner ideas for this week-

stuffed shells
salsa chicken
orange chicken
honey chicken
coconut chicken
kielbasa and sauerkraut
baked ziti
tacos
fajitas
sweet and sour pork
curry pineapple pork
fish tacos
jambalaya

Food Journal 6/17/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- leftover bbq pulled pork

Dinner- eggplant parmesan

Food Journal 6/16/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- bean burrito

Dinner- chicken teriyaki with broccoli

Snack- dates

Food Journal 6/15/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- bean burritos

Dinner- BBQ pulled pork sandwiches

Snack- dates

Food Journal 6/14/2013

Breakfast- bacon and eggs (husband made breakfast)

Lunch- nothing, still full from breakfast

Dinner- spaghetti

Snack- trail mix

Five Minutes

My husband and I have decided to take five minutes a day while the baby's sleeping to talk. We're going to go out in the garage and talk about anything for five minutes. We're going to start tomorrow. I'm pretty excited and hope this works. We never have time to talk and I feel like my husband talks to everyone but me, even when we're in the same house. I guess you can call this cheap marriage counseling. The rules are no phones, no computers, no TV,  no beer, no outside distractions. Just five minutes of talking about anything - silly or serious. I think we need this. We don't have a babysitter so we can't have a date night but five minutes alone is better than nothing right?

Food Journal 6/13/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- crackers and cheese

Dinner- tacos

snack- trail mix

Alone

I have never felt more alone in my life. I had a baby ten months ago and I thought it would bring my husband and I closer together. Boy, was I wrong. If anything we're further apart than we've ever been. We basically live separate lives. I go to bed early, he stays up late. I'm with the baby, he does whatever he wants. We don't have any couple time anymore nor do we do anything as a family. We take turns watching the baby because we have no one to babysit. Our families don't live nearby and that's a big mistake when you have a baby. You need the help and support that you just can't get from a neighbor or friend.

Oh, did I mention my husband has a girl friend? She's married and lives three hours away. They're just friends except when my husband drinks a lot and then he texts her that he loves her. And he wonders why I don't trust him. I cook, clean and take care of the baby all day and when he is home he's either listening to music or texting. I might as well be alone. It's gotten to the point where I want him to cheat on me just so I have a reason to leave.

Being a stay at home mom isn't what I thought it would be. I'm home a lot and I'm alone a lot. If I complain to my husband he says I have post partum depression and that I should go talk to someone. I should be able to talk to my husband but he's too busy drinking, texting and listening to music. Must be nice.

I would love to talk to my Mom about this but she just had a heart attack and I don't want to worry her. Besides my Mom and my husband, I have no one to talk to. I'm alone and it sucks. As a stay at home mom I don't have a lot of options. I don't have an income and I don't have a lot of money. I'm basically stuck, stuck at home with a husband who still thinks he's a bachelor and a baby who deserves better. How did I get here and how the hell do I get out?

Goals

eat healthy
start walking
save money
pay off credit card
get a haircut (have an appointment tomorrow)
get new glasses
sit up straight
watch less TV
visit my parents more
read more
get teeth cleaned (appt next week)
learn something new
do something new
drink more water
clean more
cook more
communicate with someone everyday

Food Journal 6/12/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- greek yogurt

Dinner- steak and baked potato

Snack- trail mix

Food Journal 6/11/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- cottage cheese

Dinner- chili

Snack- trail mix

Menu Monday 6/10/2013

here are a few dinner ideas-

stuffed shells
eggplant parmesan
salsa chicken
orange chicken
chicken and rice
honey chicken
coconut chicken
kielbasa, potatoes and sauerkraut
baked ziti
tacos
fajitas
sweet and sour pork
chicken teriyaki
chili
spaghetti
sloppy joes

Food Journal 6/10/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- greek yogurt with strawberries and honey

Dinner- pork marsala

Food Journal 6/9/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- leftover pizza casserole

Dinner- Shrimp fried rice

Food Journal 6/8/2013

Breakfast- banana and waffle (last waffle, switching to whole wheat toast tomorrow)

Lunch- leftover enchiladas

Dinner- chicken tenders and beans

Food Journal 6/7/2013

Breakfast- banana and waffle

Lunch- leftover salsa verde

Dinner- pizza casserole

Food Journal 6/6/2013

Breakfast- banana and waffle

Lunch- peanut butter and jelly

Dinner- enchiladas

Snack- string cheese, peanut butter ball

Food Journal 6/4/2013

Breakfast- waffle and banana

Lunch- garden veggie pizza

Dinner- salsa verde

Snack- peanut butter ball

Food Journal 6/3/2013

Breakfast- banana and waffle

Lunch- lunchables

Dinner- chicken piccata

Snack- string cheese, peanut butter balls

Menu Monday 6/3/2013

Dinner ideas-

stuffed shells
eggplant parmesan
pork marsala
salsa chicken
orange chicken
chicken and rice
honey chicken
shrimp fried rice
coconut chicken
kielbasa, potatoes and sauerkraut
pizza casserole
baked ziti
tacos
fajitas
chicken tenders
sweet and sour chicken or pork
chicken teriyaki
chicken piccata

Food Journal 6/2/2013

Breakfast- banana and waffle

Lunch- pizza rolls (bad)

Dinner- spaghetti with vegetables

Snack- string cheese

Food Journal 6/1/2013

Breakfast- banana and waffle

Lunch- cottage cheese

Dinner- sloppy joes

Snack- string cheese