Food Journal 7/31/2013

breakfast- banana and toast

lunch- cottage cheese

dinner- pork chops w/ gravy, corn

Food Journal 7/30/2013

breakfast- banana and toast

lunch- leftover lasagna rolls

dinner- chicken Caesar wraps

Menu Monday 7/29/2013

here are some ideas for dinner this week-

salsa chicken
coconut chicken
kielbasa, potato and sauerkraut
jambalaya
Mongolian beef
kung pao chicken tacos
teriyaki noodle bowls
chili lime shrimp bowls
spicy shrimp and pasta
pork marsala
Mexican beans and rice
orange chicken
sweet and sour pork
fish tacos

Food Journal 7/29/2013

breakfast- banana and toast

lunch- cottage cheese

dinner- lasagna rolls

The Cat

We have a cat that we've had for about 13 years. He's getting older now and is showing signs of age. Before the baby, the cat was our baby. He got a lot of attention. Since the baby's been born he's lucky to get feed. Poor thing, we just don't have much time for him anymore. He's been acting up and I don't know if it's his age or lack or attention or both. He drags kitty litter everywhere, especially our bed. He also starts to meow at five o'clock in the morning for no reason. It's annoying but what can we do, he's our cat. Well, apparently my husband wants to put him down because he annoys him. I annoy him too sometimes, is he going to put me to sleep too? I'm sure some days he would like to. If my husband puts the cat to sleep I will never forgive him or get another pet as long as we're together. I made a commitment when I got this cat and I intend to keep it. I'm not going to give up just because he's old or annoying. If my husband is ready to give up this quickly on the cat, how soon will he give up on me? It makes me wonder.

Food Journal 7/28/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- broccoli with ranch dressing

Dinner- tacos

Food Journal 7/27/2013

breakfast- banana and toast

lunch- banana muffins (from a neighbor)

dinner- homemade chicken tenders

The Breakdown

I feel a lot better since my breakdown last Thursday. I don't think I have any tears left. I guess you have to breakdown to build yourself back up. Hopefully that's the direction I'm heading. I still want to try counseling. I have to try it at least once. I'll let you know how that goes but for right now I'm feeling good. Finally feeling calm and at peace. I hope this feeling continues.

Four Words

Here are four words that can change your life-

Choice- we all have choices, make the right one

Change- we can change, change is good

Power- we are powerful and strong

Positive- only good thoughts, only kind words

Food Journal 7/26/2013

Breakfast- banana and bread

Lunch- hot pockets (bad)

Dinner- shrimp stir fry

The Phone Call

So I finally made the phone call to get some help. Yesterday my husband and I got into a big fight and I spent half the day crying. I decided it was time to talk to someone. I can't go on like this and need someone other than my husband to talk to. I figured since my husband is getting help with his issues, it's time to deal with mine. The clinic is checking with my insurance and then they'll call me on Monday to hopefully make an appointment. I've decided to focus on me instead of my husband. He obviously doesn't care how I feel. I want to be a better person and a role model for my daughter. What we're doing now isn't working and it's got to be fixed for better or worse.

Food Journal 7/24/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- turkey and cheese sandwich, pickle

Dinner- ribs and baked beans

Food Journal 7/23/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- leftover roasted vegetable pasta

Dinner- chicken piccata

I'm Lonely

I'm lonely.  It has taken me nearly a year to figure this out. Before the baby was born my husband and I did a lot together - shopping, eating out, watching movies. That all changed with the baby. Now I stay home with the baby (constantly) and my husband goes out. He's taken over all the errands like grocery shopping plus his busy social life which rarely includes me. We have family time when he has time for it. Meanwhile I sit here. My husband and I have talked about me getting out of the house more. We've talked about it more than once but the actual getting out of the house part never seems to happen. I have to tie my husband to the chair to take a shower.

I had a baby and lost my best friend. I have no other friends here. I miss my parents because I don't have family here. I even miss my hometown (even though it's changed) because I feel no connection here. I'm in a prison of my own making. I'm lonely and it hurts. I thought having a baby would bring us closer together but instead we're further apart. I thought couple time would be replaced with family time but we've just gone in different directions passing the baby off like a football. I honestly don't know what to do or where to go. I've thought about talking to someone but I can't seem to pick up the phone and make an appointment. I'm stuck in the house with no place to go while my husband can't seem to sit still. We live completely different lives. I didn't realize being a stay at home mom would be so lonely. 

Menu Monday 7/22/2013

Here are some ideas for dinner-

salsa chicken
coconut chicken
kielbasa, potato, and sauerkraut
jambalaya
Mongolian beef
kung pao chicken tacos
chicken Caesar wraps
teriyaki noodle bowls
lasagna rolls
chili lime shrimp bowls
chicken tenders
shrimp and tomato pasta
tacos
stir fry

Food Journal 7/22/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- greek yogurt w/ honey

Dinner- roasted vegetable pasta

Food Journal 7/21/2013

breakfast- banana and toast

lunch- leftover spaghetti

dinner- chili

Food Journal 7/20/2013

breakfast- banana and toast

lunch- leftover roasted chicken and potatoes

dinner- homemade fish sticks and mashed potatoes

Food Journal 7/19/2013

breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- hot pockets (bad)

Dinner- spaghetti

Food Journal 7/16/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- pizza rolls (bad)

Dinner- sweet and sour chicken

Menu Monday 7/15/2013

Here are some ideas for dinner-

salsa chicken
coconut chicken
kielbasa, potato and sauerkraut
jambalaya
Mongolian beef
kung pao chicken tacos
chicken Caesar wraps
fish sticks
teriyaki noodle bowl
lasagna rolls
chili lime shrimp bowls
spaghetti
chicken tenders
chili

Food Journal 7/15/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- fried eggs

Dinner- stuffed shells with spinach

Lessons For My Daughter

Here are some things I would like to teach my daughter (so far)-

eat healthy
exercise
drink lots of water
stand up straight
brush your teeth, don't eat a lot of sugar
read books, don't watch a lot of TV
save money
travel
don't smoke, don't drink too much, don't do drugs
say please and thank you
ask questions
smile

be positive
be kind
be strong
be powerful
be independent
be honest

laugh
love
learn
give

Food Journal 7/14/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- hot pockets (bad)

Dinner- chicken fajitas

Food Journal 7/13/2013

Breakfast- toast

Lunch- leftover salsa verde

Dinner- sloppy joes

Food Journal 7/12/2013

Breakfast- banana, toast, Greek yogurt w/ honey

Lunch- cottage cheese

Dinner- biscuits with sausage and gravy

Food Journal 7/11/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- cottage cheese, blackberries

Dinner- BBQ chicken, corn

Food Journal 7/10/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- greek yogurt with blueberries and honey

Dinner- salsa verde w/ beans and rice

Food Journal 7/9/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- tomato, green onion, bleu cheese salad

Dinner- veggie spaghetti

Food Journal 7/8/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- salad with tomato and bleu cheese

Dinner- pot roast with vegetables

Food Journal 7/3/2013

Breakfast- banana and toast

Lunch- cheese stick, trail mix, salami

Dinner- lemon butter fish

Food Journal 7/2/2013

Breakfast- toast

Lunch- tomato, bean, and avocado salad

Dinner- sandwiches and salad (too hot to cook!)

Posting Schedule

Starting July 3 my husband will be on vacation for 10 days (yikes) and my in laws are coming to visit for 4th of July weekend (double yikes). Did I mention it's hot as hell around here too? Great, stuck inside with the baby, husband and in laws. This is not what I call a vacation. Anyway, for the next 10 days posting will be sporadic. I'll post when I can but no guarantees. Thanks for understanding. Happy 4th of July! Stay cool and safe.

Menu Monday 7/1/2013

Dinner ideas-

stuffed shells
salsa chicken
coconut chicken
kielbasa and sauerkraut
fajitas
sweet and sour pork
jambalaya
Mongolian beef
salsa verde
sloppy joes
buffalo chicken wraps
kung pao chicken tacos
chicken Caesar wrap
fish sticks
teriyaki noodle bowl

Food Journal 7/1/2013

Breakfast- toast (out of bananas)

Lunch- leftover orange chicken

Dinner- baked ziti

Snack- string cheese