breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- lunchable (bad)
dinner- pork marsala w/ stuffing
sleep- 8 hours
exercise- none
other-
My husband's weekend starts tomorrow. Tomorrow he's suppose to carve the pumpkin and I'm going to buy candy. Thursday is Halloween. My husband will hand out the candy and I'll take our daughter trick or treating. It should be a fun weekend....I hope.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Monday, October 28, 2013
Daily Update 10/28/2013
breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- none (bad, just not hungry)
dinner- fish and mashed potatoes
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- none
other-
Today was couples therapy and it went really well. We watched the baby in the office and she was really good. There was no yelling and no tears. The therapist was in complete control of the situation. The main thing I learned was communication is the key. If you're unhappy you have to say so. You can't move forward if you don't communicate. I was pleasantly surprised by today's session and I look forward to next time.
lunch- none (bad, just not hungry)
dinner- fish and mashed potatoes
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- none
other-
Today was couples therapy and it went really well. We watched the baby in the office and she was really good. There was no yelling and no tears. The therapist was in complete control of the situation. The main thing I learned was communication is the key. If you're unhappy you have to say so. You can't move forward if you don't communicate. I was pleasantly surprised by today's session and I look forward to next time.
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Daily Update 10/27/2013
breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- ravioli (bad)
dinner- sweet and sour chicken
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- took my daughter for a walk
other-
Well, my husband made it a point yesterday to say again that his friendship with Angie is over. He said he spoke to her last week and told her to cut it out. I guess her husband is starting to get suspicious too. My husband said she was flirting but I know it takes two to tango. Only time will tell how this works out.
Tomorrow is couples therapy. I'm nervous for two reasons - one, the receptionist is suppose to watch our daughter. I don't see that working out but we'll see and I'm just nervous about the therapy itself. My husband has made it a point now to say twice he doesn't talk to Angie anymore and he's going to start working overtime to pay for his beer. We estimated he spends about $200 a month on beer alone. I think he's trying to score points with me so I don't bring it up tomorrow. I'm just going to let the therapist take the lead. I have no idea what I'm in for.
lunch- ravioli (bad)
dinner- sweet and sour chicken
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- took my daughter for a walk
other-
Well, my husband made it a point yesterday to say again that his friendship with Angie is over. He said he spoke to her last week and told her to cut it out. I guess her husband is starting to get suspicious too. My husband said she was flirting but I know it takes two to tango. Only time will tell how this works out.
Tomorrow is couples therapy. I'm nervous for two reasons - one, the receptionist is suppose to watch our daughter. I don't see that working out but we'll see and I'm just nervous about the therapy itself. My husband has made it a point now to say twice he doesn't talk to Angie anymore and he's going to start working overtime to pay for his beer. We estimated he spends about $200 a month on beer alone. I think he's trying to score points with me so I don't bring it up tomorrow. I'm just going to let the therapist take the lead. I have no idea what I'm in for.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Daily Update 10/26/2013
breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- leftover spaghetti
dinner- chili
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- took my daughter to the park
other-
Yesterday I told my husband that I was disappointed that we didn't go to the park Thursday as we had planned. He decided to go to the bar instead. I guess bar time is more important than family time. So he decided that we were going to the park Friday morning even though it was about forty degrees out. I hope he realizes making up for lost time doesn't count. It wasn't that cold in the sun and our daughter had fun but it certainly felt rushed. I just wish we had went to the park on Thursday when it was much warmer and we had all day to do it.
I've decided that on his days off I'm just going to assume he's going to the bar. This way I won't be so disappointed when he does it. Maybe that will save me some pain.
lunch- leftover spaghetti
dinner- chili
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- took my daughter to the park
other-
Yesterday I told my husband that I was disappointed that we didn't go to the park Thursday as we had planned. He decided to go to the bar instead. I guess bar time is more important than family time. So he decided that we were going to the park Friday morning even though it was about forty degrees out. I hope he realizes making up for lost time doesn't count. It wasn't that cold in the sun and our daughter had fun but it certainly felt rushed. I just wish we had went to the park on Thursday when it was much warmer and we had all day to do it.
I've decided that on his days off I'm just going to assume he's going to the bar. This way I won't be so disappointed when he does it. Maybe that will save me some pain.
Friday, October 25, 2013
Weekend Update 10/25/2013
I survived my husband's weekend. It's amazing how better I feel once Friday comes. I spend Wednesday and Thursday on pins and needles but on Friday I can breathe. The weekend wasn't bad but it wasn't good either. He went to the bar both days even though we're low on money. Thursday we were suppose to take our daughter to the park but he went to the bar instead. Wednesday night he wanted to walk to the gas station to get more beer but he couldn't walk a straight line if he tried. So instead he drank his moonshine. Good compromise.
My husband keeps complaining about the lack of sex. He thinks if he rolls over and touches me I'm automatically turned on. Sorry, it doesn't work that way. Maybe he should try drinking less, spending time with his family, and less time on the phone. That might work. He also says he doesn't text his friend Angie anymore. I would like to believe him but I don't. I know better.
Monday we have couples therapy. At first I was dreading it but now I'm looking forward to it. Maybe our therapist can help us. I obviously can't get through to him. This therapy thing is a last ditch effort. If this doesn't work I don't know what will.
Our neighbor is getting ready to sell her home and move an hour away. That's a bummer. She's the only one I trust with my daughter. She's also the only one we socialize with as a family. We don't hang out with other families. I don't have any mom friends. As a matter of fact, I don't have anyone else. She's our only support out here. If she moves it will just make a bad situation even worse.
Sometimes I wish I would win lots of money so I can leave and get out of here. I would go and be with my parents. I'm tired of being alone and not having any support. My husband completely ignores us. I pray that something good will happen because at this point that's all I can do.
My husband keeps complaining about the lack of sex. He thinks if he rolls over and touches me I'm automatically turned on. Sorry, it doesn't work that way. Maybe he should try drinking less, spending time with his family, and less time on the phone. That might work. He also says he doesn't text his friend Angie anymore. I would like to believe him but I don't. I know better.
Monday we have couples therapy. At first I was dreading it but now I'm looking forward to it. Maybe our therapist can help us. I obviously can't get through to him. This therapy thing is a last ditch effort. If this doesn't work I don't know what will.
Our neighbor is getting ready to sell her home and move an hour away. That's a bummer. She's the only one I trust with my daughter. She's also the only one we socialize with as a family. We don't hang out with other families. I don't have any mom friends. As a matter of fact, I don't have anyone else. She's our only support out here. If she moves it will just make a bad situation even worse.
Sometimes I wish I would win lots of money so I can leave and get out of here. I would go and be with my parents. I'm tired of being alone and not having any support. My husband completely ignores us. I pray that something good will happen because at this point that's all I can do.
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Daily Update 10/22/2013
breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- lunchable (bad)
dinner- shrimp, rice and beans
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- none
lunch- lunchable (bad)
dinner- shrimp, rice and beans
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- none
Monday, October 21, 2013
Daily Update 10/21/2013
breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- donut (bad)
dinner- buffalo chicken wraps
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- walked w/ my daughter
other-
I saw my therapist and next Monday my husband and I are starting couples therapy. I am so nervous. I know it's not going to go well especially when the touchy subjects come up like drinking and texting. My therapist says she will not allow my husband to play the blame game or insult me. We also need to do a budget because we always end up short at the end of the month. I know he spends a lot of money on alcohol and I'm sick of watching our future go down his throat. We also need to start leaving our daughter with our neighbor. Hopefully, our neighbor can watch her Monday or the receptionist will but I think that will be too distracting. Our daughter needs to get out of the house more and be around other people. She can't be with me all the time. As much as I love her, I need to let her go.
My cousin emailed me and wants me to talk to my mom about getting my dad to see an eye doctor. He needs eye surgery but for some reason will not go. I wish my parents would take better care of themselves. They're both retired and have no excuse not to go to the doctor.
I've been trying to watch less TV and I also realized I need to spend less time on Facebook too. Those are my two major time wasters. I went on Facebook and went through my newsfeed and hid anyone I don't care about and who doesn't care about me. Why am I wasting my time following someone who was never my friend and never will be? Some people post way too much. I need to focus on me, not other people. I'm tired of trying to please other people and getting them to like me. I need to move on. I need to focus on me, my daughter and my parents and that's not going to happen watching TV or being on Facebook.
lunch- donut (bad)
dinner- buffalo chicken wraps
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- walked w/ my daughter
other-
I saw my therapist and next Monday my husband and I are starting couples therapy. I am so nervous. I know it's not going to go well especially when the touchy subjects come up like drinking and texting. My therapist says she will not allow my husband to play the blame game or insult me. We also need to do a budget because we always end up short at the end of the month. I know he spends a lot of money on alcohol and I'm sick of watching our future go down his throat. We also need to start leaving our daughter with our neighbor. Hopefully, our neighbor can watch her Monday or the receptionist will but I think that will be too distracting. Our daughter needs to get out of the house more and be around other people. She can't be with me all the time. As much as I love her, I need to let her go.
My cousin emailed me and wants me to talk to my mom about getting my dad to see an eye doctor. He needs eye surgery but for some reason will not go. I wish my parents would take better care of themselves. They're both retired and have no excuse not to go to the doctor.
I've been trying to watch less TV and I also realized I need to spend less time on Facebook too. Those are my two major time wasters. I went on Facebook and went through my newsfeed and hid anyone I don't care about and who doesn't care about me. Why am I wasting my time following someone who was never my friend and never will be? Some people post way too much. I need to focus on me, not other people. I'm tired of trying to please other people and getting them to like me. I need to move on. I need to focus on me, my daughter and my parents and that's not going to happen watching TV or being on Facebook.
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