breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- top ramen (not healthy, but I wasn't feeling well)
dinner- tacos
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- none
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Monday, October 7, 2013
Daily Update 10/7/2013
breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- avocado, snack bar (not really hungry, also not much to eat in the house)
dinner- shrimp, rice, veggie stir fry
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- walked with my daughter
lunch- avocado, snack bar (not really hungry, also not much to eat in the house)
dinner- shrimp, rice, veggie stir fry
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- walked with my daughter
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Daily Update 10/6/2013
breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- Caesar salad
dinner- pizza chicken, garlic bread
sleep- about eight hours
exercise- walked with my daughter
other-
Yesterday my husband thanked me for being nice, more specifically for coming into bed after I got up earlier to snuggle (no sex). That's not something I normally do but I thought it might be nice. At first his comment bothered me. I know I'm not always a joy to be around but deep down I am a nice person. I'm a nice person who is in a bad situation. It's hard to be nice when your husband drinks and texts another woman. It's hard to be nice when you're alone a lot and you wish deep down you were someplace else. It's hard but I'm trying.
Speaking of being someplace else, my mother in law called me from Vegas. Vegas is where I used to live and where my parents live. Vegas is the place I wish I could go back to. My mother in law was there to celebrate her 40th wedding anniversary but all she talked about was being tired and being sick of hotels. I would trade places with her in a second. We were suppose to be there too for the anniversary party but then they cancelled it but they had it anyway (long story). Everyone was there except us. Now we look like the losers. Oh well, I rather go on my own anyway. One day, one day....
I still hope my parents move up here but I don't think that will happen especially after I told them about my husband's drinking. I wish I had someplace to go because things can get pretty sad and lonely here. For now I'm stuck and I better make the best of it. I better start being nice.
lunch- Caesar salad
dinner- pizza chicken, garlic bread
sleep- about eight hours
exercise- walked with my daughter
other-
Yesterday my husband thanked me for being nice, more specifically for coming into bed after I got up earlier to snuggle (no sex). That's not something I normally do but I thought it might be nice. At first his comment bothered me. I know I'm not always a joy to be around but deep down I am a nice person. I'm a nice person who is in a bad situation. It's hard to be nice when your husband drinks and texts another woman. It's hard to be nice when you're alone a lot and you wish deep down you were someplace else. It's hard but I'm trying.
Speaking of being someplace else, my mother in law called me from Vegas. Vegas is where I used to live and where my parents live. Vegas is the place I wish I could go back to. My mother in law was there to celebrate her 40th wedding anniversary but all she talked about was being tired and being sick of hotels. I would trade places with her in a second. We were suppose to be there too for the anniversary party but then they cancelled it but they had it anyway (long story). Everyone was there except us. Now we look like the losers. Oh well, I rather go on my own anyway. One day, one day....
I still hope my parents move up here but I don't think that will happen especially after I told them about my husband's drinking. I wish I had someplace to go because things can get pretty sad and lonely here. For now I'm stuck and I better make the best of it. I better start being nice.
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Daily Update 10/5/2013
breakfast- banana and toast
lunch- leftover fettuccine alfredo
dinner- Dijon apricot pork chops w/ scalloped potatoes
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- walked w/ my daughter in the stroller
other- I spoke to my Mom today after the bombshell I dropped last week regarding my husband's drinking. Of course, she's concerned but I told her that everything is ok....for now. She said I can come down there anytime I want and stay. I told my husband that and he didn't seem thrilled. I told him last week I told my parents about the drinking, therapy etc. but he seems to have forgotten. He kinda gave me the cold shoulder before he left for work but whatever. It's his problem not mine. If he's embarrassed that's his fault. He also likes to point out that I don't have it so bad. I guess that's his way of telling me to shut up but I won't and he can't make me. The only two things I got going for me right now is my daughter and the truth.
lunch- leftover fettuccine alfredo
dinner- Dijon apricot pork chops w/ scalloped potatoes
sleep- about 8 hours
exercise- walked w/ my daughter in the stroller
other- I spoke to my Mom today after the bombshell I dropped last week regarding my husband's drinking. Of course, she's concerned but I told her that everything is ok....for now. She said I can come down there anytime I want and stay. I told my husband that and he didn't seem thrilled. I told him last week I told my parents about the drinking, therapy etc. but he seems to have forgotten. He kinda gave me the cold shoulder before he left for work but whatever. It's his problem not mine. If he's embarrassed that's his fault. He also likes to point out that I don't have it so bad. I guess that's his way of telling me to shut up but I won't and he can't make me. The only two things I got going for me right now is my daughter and the truth.
Friday, October 4, 2013
Changes
I'm going to change the food journal to a daily journal. My therapist has me filling out this sheet where I list meals, hours slept, exercise, and anything that happens that prevents me from eating right, sleeping or exercising. I like it and I think besides eating right it's important to exercise and get enough sleep. So let's begin.
breakfast- toast and banana
lunch- hot pockets (bad)
dinner- chicken and dumplings w/ mixed veggies
sleep- 8 hours
exercise- I didn't exercise. It was cold and windy. I didn't do much yesterday. It was my husband's last day of vacation and I just tried to get through the day.
breakfast- toast and banana
lunch- hot pockets (bad)
dinner- chicken and dumplings w/ mixed veggies
sleep- 8 hours
exercise- I didn't exercise. It was cold and windy. I didn't do much yesterday. It was my husband's last day of vacation and I just tried to get through the day.
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Vacation Update
My husband's vacation is almost over so I though I would give an update. Friday I caught him texting his "friend" Angie. She's married also and lives a couple of hours away. They met at a race and my husband works with her cousin. I've caught them texting before and let's say some of the texts were borderline flirtatious plus alcohol equals bad news. As usual a fight followed, then tears, then anger. Of course, it's everyone's fault but his. He's an innocent little lamb. Thanks husband for drinking and texting another woman.
Saturday I broke down and told my mom everything - the drinking, the texting, therapy, my in laws, everything. The cat is out of the bag. Now my parents know how miserable I've been.
Sunday, more drinking and texting but this time my husband decided to pick on his brother. His brother took the drunken bait, called him, and they had a fight. My husband hung up on him and his brother texted that he never wants to talk to him again.
Also, my husband thought for some reason our car insurance wasn't going to go through so he went to the bar instead. Guess what? The next day the car insurance went through and I had to put money in his account but at least he got to go to the bar and that's all that counts, right?
So that's the highlights of my husband's drunken vacation. I can't wait for it to be over.
Saturday I broke down and told my mom everything - the drinking, the texting, therapy, my in laws, everything. The cat is out of the bag. Now my parents know how miserable I've been.
Sunday, more drinking and texting but this time my husband decided to pick on his brother. His brother took the drunken bait, called him, and they had a fight. My husband hung up on him and his brother texted that he never wants to talk to him again.
Also, my husband thought for some reason our car insurance wasn't going to go through so he went to the bar instead. Guess what? The next day the car insurance went through and I had to put money in his account but at least he got to go to the bar and that's all that counts, right?
So that's the highlights of my husband's drunken vacation. I can't wait for it to be over.
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