More Than Just a Wife

I want to be more than just a wife. I would like to be a mom too but as the months and years go by that's becoming increasingly difficult. A wife, unlike a mom, is not a full time job. It's a part of who you are but it's not the whole pie. I tell people I'm a housewife with no kids and they look at me like I'm an alien.

I feel like I have no identity. If I were pregnant or had kids I would be the mom-to-be or the stay-at- home mom. I would be part of the mom club. Instead I'm part of the infertility club which is a secret and shameful club that no one discusses or wants to be a part of.

I haven't worked in many years and if I went back to work today I would probably be lucky to make minimum wage in an office somewhere. I would have to start all over again and work my way up, which is something I'm used to doing but I just don't want to. I like to write (obviously) but that doesn't pay the bills. I like to do a lot of things-cook, read, for example-but nothing that really translates into a skill that I can be paid for.

I'm on the search for an identity. I'm more than just a housewife and I hope someday to be a mom but until then I have to find something else to occupy my time. Even if I'm not a mom or a CEO, I'm still a person who has thoughts and feelings. Every person should be respected. We shouldn't be labeled by who we are or who we want to be. We're all humans on this journey called life. We all have issues and problems that no one knows about. Let's respect each other and be nice to one another. Let's just make it to the end of the day, take a deep breathe, and get ready for tomorrow.